Realisations

Recently I had a hypnotherapy session with a close friend of mine Bernadette Wright from New Life Patterns http://www.newlifepatterns.com/. My aim in getting hypnotised was to improve my memory and retention skill as I'm really finding it a challenge to read from my Book of Readings for my counselling course then I struggle to remember what I have read 2 minutes later. I had a beautiful experience, it was very sad and I cried quite a bit but I felt such a weight lifted off my shoulders when it was over. Through the session I discovered that my belief system regarding my memory and intelligence began in 1984 when I was in year 4 and we were learning our times tables. Other kids 'got it' so much quicker than I did and it didn't matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't remember my times tables. I remember very vividly failing a test and feeling so embarrassed and humiliated that I had failed and it was then that I "learned" that I had a very bad memory and was stupid. Well 30-odd years later I still have that belief system knocking around in my head, telling me every day that I'm essentially a stupid woman and have a terrible memory. 

That's a big call for a 9 year old to make about herself isn't it? That you're stupid and can't remember anything. I wonder how I would have turned out if my teacher had given me the extra attention I needed instead of telling me that I just needed to go over them again otherwise I'd be in trouble if I failed another test. The ridiculous thing is that as an adult I know I'm not stupid, a stupid person could not have achieved what I have in my life and yes, my memory works, perhaps I don't remember every single thing I read or see but I do have a basic recall of what is important or of interest to me. 

My hypnotherapy session was so uplifting, I reassured 9 year old Kylie that she wasn't stupid and could remember whatever she wanted to and told her what her life would eventually be like when she grew into the woman I am today. It was so lovely to be able to tell her that things would get better and that she would have everything she had ever wanted, and she would achieve it all on her own merit. And I'm damn proud of that! 

What limiting beliefs do you have about yourself that are holding you back today?

love

K