Well right now I am feeling totally inadequate and just plain D. U. M. B.
Today I did my next assessment for my counselling course; I didn't feel quite as ready as I had hoped to but I knew that I knew my stuff so I was ready for the assessment. Well that feeling went downhill when my role play partner, a lovely lady called Sophia, arrived and as we chatted she told me that she is an experienced Life Coach and while she initially started her counselling Diploma several years ago, she has completed the majority of it this year and will have finished the entire thing by years end. And boy, did she know her stuff, she knew the modalities we were having assessed verbatim and knew how and when to apply them as well. Basically I was a total and complete
amateur working with a complete pro and while she and the assessor Tina were wonderfully supportive, I feel that I looked foolish and unprofessional and basically made an idiot of myself.
Whilst I passed the assessment, therefore I am technically at the same level as Sophia as far as the counselling Diploma is concerned, I still can't help but feel totally behind the 8 ball in terms of my learning and retaining this stuff. I passed the workbook no problem, but it seems to me that I should be able to apply what I have learned far more effectively than I am able to right now. Tina said something wonderful, she said that I am at the level that I am supposed to be at for this section of my studying. That made me feel much better but the little voice inside my won't shut up shouting that I'm a loser and I should just quit now and forget about it.
I know, I know. Poor Kylie. Feeling sorry for herself and wanting to revert back to her old quitter ways. I'm just being a sook.
Love
Kylie
Considering all that you've had to deal with while you've been working to complete your studies, you should feel extremely proud of yourself, not beating yourself up for being up to the same level with someone who has working experience! Most folks would have come up with a million excuses to throw in the towel because everyday life got in the way, but not you, you have had one hurdle after another, yet you've kept pushing forward & look where it's getting you! Everyone has to start somewhere, and I bet you're doing far better than you think you are. After all, look how much further ahead you are than all the folks who were too scared to even try to pursue their dreams! You're going to be an awesome life coach, counselor, or whatever you want to be. You're already an inspiration to many through this blog - myself included! I wish you all the luck in the world, I have no doubt you're going to thrive at whatever you set your mind to do!
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