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Wednesday, 2 May 2012

I don't know why but I'm feeling super creative lately, I did some painting last week and yesterday I made a dress. I am the worlds least perfectionist-seamstress so no one can look on the inside of my dress to the see the standard of work!! lol. I had to un-pick and re-do it all a few times and some very unladylike words were steaming forth from my pretty little mouth, I can tell you!! The old Kylie would have just thrown the half finished dress away at the first sign that it wasn't all going to plan but I'm proud to say that is not what I do anymore.

You see I used to be the ultimate "give up on it" person at the first little bump in the road, I expected perfection from myself first time and every time. My history is scattered with half-done hobbies, incomplete projects and lots of great ideas but not much actually accomplished. I honestly would become completely disgusted with myself when I would try to make something and it didn't turn out like the picture in the book that I would just give in and throw it all in the rubbish. And this also made me not try lots of things too, if after reading how to do it if I thought I would find it in the least bit challenging, I wouldn't bother even giving it a go, so convinced of my imminent failure. The funny thing was that while I expected perfection in myself, I didn't in others; I would feel genuinely proud of others whom would just give things a go. I would honestly see past the mistakes and dropped stitches in something that a loved one had made and see the time and effort that they had put into whatever project they were showing me, but me, no way! It had to be perfection the first time or it went in the bin.

I don't know how or why things changed for me, perhaps I was just sick of all the half-done projects in the back of my wardrobe, I really don't know. But now I do give things a go and I realise that if it doesn't turn out perfectly the first time then that's ok, I can re-do it over, or start again or use what I have learned and start something new and I'll probably get it right this time.

So that's my bit of wisdom for the day, lol.
love
K

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